Two months after hubby said he wanted a separation he finally moved out yesterday. I have just woken for the first time in 15 years without him breathing next to me. The emotions have been mixed but I did it! I know I’m going to be up and town for a while. Anyone any advice on how I move forwards and not miss him? Even when we were not talking his presence was reassuring.
The night before he left he just couldn’t help but go over why he had to leave (helped on by the alcohol). Which was not fair…..he told me he had him made his mind up and doesn’t matter what I say or do there is no going back. So why bring it up again when it won’t make any difference? (We are mutually responsible for this breakup. I pushed him away physically and his drinking and behaviour pushed me away). He also told me he loves me, he always will and I’m the only person he has ever loved. Unfortunately I was too emotional to listen to it and ended up bunking with my daughter.
The hardest part I think was coming home from work and seeing all his stuff gone. I did notice he had taken a framed photo of us on our wedding day and a framed photo of me. Can this give me hope there still could be a future for us or am I deluding myself?
Just feel a little lost right now. Would love to hear from others in a similar situation x