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I have built up a decent career but not massively in love with it anymore. Sometimes I wonder if I’m just a bit lazy. I don’t feel passionately about it like others do. Despite that, starting out I must have worked hard as it’s a competitive industry. I’ve wound up mid thirties on around 75k, living just north of the midlands. I’ve got a small mortgage left on a house I like though isn’t anything amazing, just an average 3 bed.
I’ve been with DP a while and we are thinking of moving in, I would move to his and maybe rent my place out. We haven’t talked about money beyond that, he earns a tiny bit more than me and money just hasn’t come up between us really ever. We just sort of pay equally I guess but there’s been times he’s paid for more I think. We don’t really count it.
Anyway. I’ve felt so shit about work recently that I’ve wanted to do maybe three days a week. I don’t know if this will change the dynamics between us? A friend has said I will feel shit not being able to do all the things I want on my own terms. Also wonder whether I will suddenly think what am I going to do on those days off? I’m also worried I’m maybe just burnt out, haven’t had a day off since December.
I feel the weeks pass in seconds yet the days feel so unbearably long. At work I am often faking enthusiasm in a room or zoom full of people who appear to be genuinely interested in the work. I’ve thought about change of careers but I’m good at what I do when I put my mind to it, so i don’t think a different career is the answer. Just wondered if anyone had any advice really or has felt similar.