I feel utterly trapped.
DS will be 3 in September. He is the most full on child I've ever met. He does not stop talking, ever. Same cyclical conversations, asking the same questions over and over. Wants to be involved with everything - I can't even make a cup of tea without him wanting to 'help me' and invariably something happens to lead to a total meltdown.
We went to a shopping centre this morning and I've come away without half the stuff I needed because he was either screaming his head off in the pram or running about everywhere on foot. He is very bright and very switched on. I can hear him having a complete breakdown downstairs at the moment.
DD is 8 months, wakes multiple times a night. I'm trying to get her into a routine but thinking about naps and logistics is just exhausting.
They both suffer from eczema and the sun has made it 1000 times worse. DD is clawing at her neck. They are both dairy and soya free (I'm feeding so I cant even have a mars bar or something I like!)
It all sounds so trivial and minor written down. But the 24/7 nature of it has broken me. I csmt ever just 'be'. Every mealtime is constant trying to get DS to not chuck stuff on the floor. Wiping the highchair and the table and the floor 3 times a day is just soul destroying.
I hate my life. I cant remember the last time I enjoyed anything.