Coping with OCD when already very tired

[cantblockitout]

I’m struggling to block it out tonight . Keep getting horrendously vivid thoughts of my family seriously ill or worse. It’s making me panic . I keep thinking they’re premonitions and I know they’re not but my mind keeps saying they are, it’s magical thinking I know and I can’t predicte the future, just my mind thinks I can .

I’m absolutely exhausted, not feeling well at all this week already, not long finished a month of uni exams and I’m struggling .

Having therapy just now and she’s teaching me exposure response prevention and radical acceptance but I can’t do it tonight, I’m exhausted and just want to sleep but can’t . thinking try to block it out with Netflix / sometimes sleep with friends or Big Bang theory so can’t hear my own thoughts ?

That's shit, I'm sorry.

Breathing exercises 5 sec. In 5 sec. Out, focus on breathing atleast 5 breaths.

If you can reach the point of being so tired and fed up (tonight) that you just go 'sod it, I can't do anything about it, might as well lay it away'. You can get this angry and tired. And just for tonight telly to divert.

And then tomorrow work on your therapy, hope it's cbt .

When crap is ruminating in my head, I get a pen and paper and I have a psychological purge. I write down every crap thought that’s in there. No judgement, no matter how daft. Then I look at it and ask myself, is that the truth? Or is that fear? Fear is an illusion. That helps me. And lexapro, and hugs you’re not alone, loads of us have this..

Oh and the calm app, sleep stories..