I know my title is a bit dramatic but I just feel like a walking disaster zone! Things just keep going wrong.
Example: turned up very late to my swimming session at the gym because my house is such a hole that I couldn’t find my gym bag 
Had to borrow a wristband for a locker. Then, did my now very short swimming session and went to do the body balance class i had booked, only to go in and it was combat instead. They’d made a mistake there (it was balance on the timetable) and I would have joined in, except for the fact that I’m wearing sliders.
Give me strength!! I think I know the cause; it’s because of the aforementioned messy, cluttered house. Maybe it’s a vicious cycle but I can’t get my shit together enough to sort it, so it keeps getting worse, and then I feel even less motivated.
I can’t ride a bike. My partner bought me one in lockdown and I’m too bloody scared to try and learn.
I am a full time teacher and I have multiple kids, but even as a stay at home mum this kind of shit still happened very frequently. At least I’m doing ok at work (despite being quite behind with my paperwork. See also: messy house and desk at home literally buried in shite).
Sorry for the long post but I really can’t talk to anyone about how I feel. People see a woman who’s doing ok at being a mum and teacher but they don’t know how things really are!
Anyone identify or give me some counselling?! 