My first post so hoping I’m doing it right , so I have a nearly 2 year old son who is the love of my life . However since the pandemic it’s pushed me and my partner apart, me working from home, having no support network due to pandemic , and just generally fed up of the sound of my voice no to my son no to my dogs , explaining things to my partner to the last inch of my life, and he never does them. I am a terrible insomniac which doesn’t help and I can not for the life of me sleep in the same bed as him anymore he’s noisy ! I have enough noise all day And I feel like I’m slowly going insane . He’s so negative , moody and moans about money CONSTANTLY If he had it his way he would have the same amount of money that we get paid , left at the end of the month which is just not realistic ! He would happily not buy our son anything for birthdays or Christmas as “he knows no different “ at his age as he says. I’m
Just down , and depressed I do and have for years suffered with both and probably been somewhat reliant on him, in terms of anxiety wise.
But now we have our son I’m done , he’s so negative I feel I’m beginning to hate him daily but I don’t know a way out we have a mortgage , a son , 2 dogs and not a lot of spare money , I feel trapped and don’t know what to do ? I don’t even know where to start. ...... is there anyone there just to lend a ear , just on here , and let me know if this can be the norm ..... I feel when my son is 3 I can go back to work full time and may be in a better financial position to sort myself out , but the constant arguing over money is literally taking any light I had on life away , I know this sounds so small to others problems , it’s just I want to be on my own even if I have to live in a one bedroom flat with my son for a bit , I just don’t know where to start? ... thanks for listening x