Whenever anything remotely nice has happened or is about to happen, I am completely panicked and terrified that something awful will thwart it or that I am ‘owed’ something bad to happen.
I will start to worry about so much. The latest is that my lovely lovely DP has booked a surprise trip away for next weekend. As soon as he told me yesterday, I have been in a complete state. Worried that I need an sti screen (?!) no idea where that has come from, worrying that I will get ill or he will, worrying that I will lose my job.
It always happens when anything nice is coming up. I know this is a mental health problem and I have support for my mental health but I just wanted to chat and see if anyone else experiences this. I feel really alone today.