Didn't get a job that would have really turned things around for me. Stuck in a job that is not giving me the experience I had hoped and feel like I will never be able to progress to a better job, being as I so fucked up that interview. So long since I did anything I could 'sell' at an interview that I couldn't give them what they needed.
Earn hardly anything.
We are not returning to the office and I hate being stuck at home working. Haven't seen anyone for weeks.
Went out in town and got really sad seeing people eating and drinking with friends when I do not have friends to meet up with and do this. Such a simple, ordinary thing to do. I do have friendly acquaintances but they are mum friends and I see them for mum things. Even then, of my three mum acquaintances found out in past few days that two of them did not invite me to their kids' birthday (more of a small group social than a kids' party due to lockdown) even though I invited them to my sons'.
Just dumped the guy I was seeing as he cancelled on me, again, despite knowing how upset I am about the job and being lonely not seeing anyone for weeks.
Tbh, I am so low, I've tried to hard for years now, but feel like nothing is ever getting any better and I am so lonely that if I didn't have the kids I would end it all.