This is my OCD talking isn’t it? Scared I’ve taken too many tablets

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I take mirtazapine before bed, 30mg; max UK dose is 45mg .

I somehow managed to convince myself I might have taken my tablet accidentally at 7 . I don’t think I did . But I don’t know for sure . I’d normally feel very sleepy and woozy after and that didn’t happen .

Stupidly I don’t use a dosset box (I do from now on?!) so can’t be sure .

Anyway lying in bed tossing and turning and very anxious and normally that doesn’t happen as tablet sends me to sleep . So I’m pretty convinced I didn’t actually take it at 7 .

So I’ve taken the tablet now ... still with me?!

Im lying panicking now that I’ve accidentally overdosed. I’ve been in this position before a few months ago and told by NHS24 I’d be absolutely fine, my weight would offset it and it was only 15mg above U.K. dose so not a huge concern at all... but I’m still wide awake, anxious and panicking I’m going to end up ill ...

This is all my OCD talking isn’t it? Wish it had a bloody off switch !

My OCD does this too, especially with the possibility of poisoning someone. You almost certainly actually know the answer. If someone put a gun to your head this moment and said, OP, answer immediately or you'll be shot. Have you taken your pill twice? That's the acid test I do when my OCD plays up!

Yep, this has OCD written all over it. I wholly emapthise, I do things like this too.

Have you got the Calm app, or if you want a free version of similar, use the Insights Timer app, that's what info to distract myself long enough to relax and go to sleep. Play some bloody meditations.

It's shit. But try to distract yourself and go to sleep. You'll feel better Inthe morning.

What info = what I do.

Thank you , I’ve stuck friends on Netflix and trying to practice breathing . In therapy at moment and therapist has said acceptance and not seeking reassurance is key, so trying to do that -not easy at all !