Hi I have no one to talk to, I was caring for someone for a long time and so could not have time to meet someone and settle down and have a family. Then with covid it was hard, I stayed hopeful but now I am really worried I am perimenopausal and having an early menopause. Really thought this was my time now to get out there and possibly meet someone and have kids, I wanted to be a mum for so long. I am 39. I know quite a few people having their first child now. Over the last couple of months I have woken up a bit hot at night and had now and again some leg twitching and leg tingling. My periods have never been regular but the last three were 27,42 and 46 days. I am so worried my periods are just going to stop and that is it and then I have nothing left no hope I just can't believe this is happening now when my life was just starting to get better. I am going to the doctors but just feel it must be peri and if so probably won't be able to have kids now, it is braking me to be honest I am so sad and feel so lost and alone. There is no history in the family of early menopause as far as I know so a big shock as well, just finding it hard to carry on at the moment, sorry,