So the last few weeks it's felt like everyone I know has had a baby or announced a pregnancy and I'm happy for them. But today it was my best friend. Who not long ago said she didn't want to have her own child (she is a stepmum) and I'm really struggling to not be upset.
I've known for years that I'd struggle to conceive. I've been with my partner for 8 years. I'm ready for children but he's not. I do keep pointing out that time isn't on our side, I'm in my 30s. If we need IVF then I may need to loose weight (already trying) which will add to how long it's going to take. Obviously it might not even work. I might never get pregnant.
I can't even hope for an accidental pregnancy because my partner won't have sex without protection but also due to his long shifts our sex life is pretty much nonexistent. I'm just struggling with so many emotions and I don't know how to deal with them.
How can I be there for my friend without hurting myself and my relationship (the more people I know that get pregnant the more pressure I put on my boyfriend to give me an answer on when he's going to be ready).