I fake laugh so much, I've got a reputation for being bubbly

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Dh took Dd to school this morning and one of the mums stated chatting to him on the way out. We are new to the area and I do most of the pick ups.

She was telling him how lovely and bubbly I am. I really, really am not.

I'm not a friendly person by nature, I don't really do friends, but I must have one of those faces (even with a mask on) because people tend to flock to me.

I've been told I'm a good listener - I'm not, I completely zone out but I make the right noises at the right times.

And I fake laugh. A lot. My older Ds takes the piss out of me for it and does a great impression of it.

I'm the most miserable person on the face of the planet but man, can I fake laugh. So much so that I'm now not also friendly, but bubbly with it.

How do I go about nominating myself for a bafta? I must be the worlds greatest actress.

I think we all mask to a certain extent. I'm good for a few sentences, but then I have to get outta there. I don't take laugh though, I'm not that committed!

Apparently she said, "your wife is so bubbly and warm with everyone, she's lovely", and Dh said "oh, I'm Xs dad, sorry", and she said, "yes I know, your wife is so sunny all the time."

He thought she was on about someone else too.

I'm autistic and when in public I mask like hell. People think I'm far more fun and bubbly then I really am. People would describe me as very chatty. Yet when I'm at home , I'm quite and far more subdued. It feels quite weird to be two people.