Hi,
Where do I even begin. I left my foul relationship last May/June. Ever since the relationship break down, my son has been a different child. Now I totally feel for him of course I do, he misses his daddy & I can understand why it’s affected him the way it has. But our bond has completely fallen apart. My little boy is 4 & he is SUCH hard work. To the point I hate being his mum, I hate being around him - I want him to live with his dad full time. He’s horrible to his sister, he’s lashing out at me, he doesn’t listen to me, if I take him out he kicks off, if we stay home he’s bored, I try being patient, I try being calm, I take toys away or I place him into time out. I’ve literally tried every single possible thing I can do & nothing makes him listen. It’s taking over my life to a point I just cannot do it anymore. It’s not being a mum that’s the issue, if it was I would want my ex to take both the children, but it’s not the case at all. He’s as good as gold for his daddy but an absolute nightmare for me, I can’t cope :(
I know it sounds awful so please don’t judge me or throw nasty words my way, I don’t need it. I feel guilty enough for feeling the way I do. But all he wants is his dad, him and his daddy have a fantastic bond so maybe he would be happier going there and seeing me a few times a week instead. I just don’t know what to do. Surely I can’t be the only one in this position? I feel trapped.
Can I also say I’m currently getting therapy as I’ve been in a terrible place myself, so please be kind.