I’m wondering if anybody has had a similar experience. I posted previously about finding out I was pregnant for the first time. I am 23 been with my partner 4 years and just got our first home together.
Complete shock when I found out I was pregnant and the pregnancy was not planned. I couldn’t stop crying and just felt the time wasn’t right- I had panics about being a bad mum. I am adopted as my birth mum was a drug addict and birth father was aggressive towards me and abusive. I have the most amazing parents now but when I found out I was pregnant I couldn’t stop panicking Incase I turned out like my birth mum and my baby got taken away from me( I know this sounds so silly as I’m nothing like her but it was going through my mind)
I decided to book a termination even though it was the hardest choice I’ve ever had to make. I was sat in the hospital before my appointment and kept wanting to leave and decide to go ahead with the pregnancy but I just couldn’t.
I’m now a week after my procedure and can’t stop crying and regretting my decision I loved them so much and really panicked and now I am terrified. I can’t sleep or think straight and it’s impossible for me to get out of bed. I feel so guilty and empty I just wish I had had confidence in myself to go through with it but instead I doubted myself and thought I’d be an awful mum.
Will this depression guilt feeling slowly go with time? Has anybody got advice for me if been through anything similar