Struggling with being single and childless this evening

[CaymanLayman]

I'm so tired of being alone and watching everyone else do it so easily. I'm so ashamed that I can't celebrate my friends' engagements, weddings and babies without coming home and crying.

When, when, when will it be my turn? :(

Most 🙄 bloody phone!

. I got dumped just before one wedding, and the bride made me get up to dance to "single ladies" by Beyonce, while pointing at me hmm. She's divorced now

That's awful. Why are some people just so utterly cringeworthy and thoughtless

I remember that feeling so well. I was so down, wondering what was wrong with me, when would it be my turn. I'd done OLD and given up on it and was starting to think about adoption.
My turn happened aged 38. I met a friend of a friend at a fancy dress party and that was it! Married at 40, first baby at 41, second at 44. It's not all been smooth sailing. I had 2 miscarriages and we had dd2 last year in the first lockdown, so that's been tough too, but absolutely worth it.
I agree with doing things you love and making a life you're happy with, then fingers crossed it'll happen when you're least looking.

I remember that feeling very well. At 35 I had no social life as all of my friends were married and had children. I tried dating websites but no luck. I decided to look into options for having children and initially considered adoption. I realised that I wasn't in a position to be able to adopt as I was in a one bed flat. So I spent the next year saving and then buying a new house. By the time I was 37 I realised that I really wanted a baby of my own so looked into the sperm donor route through a clinic. Once I knew the costs involved and that it was possible to go ahead with iui rather than ivf which is considerably cheaper I started saving every penny. By the time I turned 38, I was 8 weeks pregnant. I love being a solo mum by choice. My DS is the best thing that ever happened to me. It hasn't been easy particularly as I have been working full time while caring for DS during the lockdowns but if I was younger I would definitely do it again. My route to parenthood wouldn't be what everyone wants but it has worked out well for me. You still have many options at your age and you never know, your future partner/husband might be just around the corner.

There are some great experiences on this thread

http://www.mumsnet.com/Talk/amiibeingunreasonable/4057964-Childfree-life

Be aware though there are sadly also some cunty posts towards childless and childfree women amongst the decent and constructive contributions

I think I'd say to focus on one thing at a time OP. What small changes could you meaningfully make to feel better? It is a cliche but being happier in yourself will help

The bride/ Beyonce story is hideous. I’m so sorry.

Covid is obviously having a big impact. I’m really looking forward to the pool opening back up, which always helps.

I’ve never really had an adult relationship, so I do live my life the way I like it, but it’s still very very lonely.

I felt exactly the same as you do at 33. I embarrassingly sobbed on a bus one night to a friend about it (oooops). At 34 I met my husband on a random night out (I nearly didn't go out that night) and we now have 2 kids. Hang in there xx