I’m having a bit of a midlife crisis 
I stopped work around 2 years ago as my disability meant working became impossible.
I really thought a couple of years out would cure me and I’d be ready to look for work again by now. There is no cure for my disease but I’ve been hopeful.
I’m finding myself in exactly the same position health wise as I was 2 years ago and I’m very frustrated by it, especially as my friends are all moving up in the world and I’m very stuck.
I’m in a catch 22 circle as I rely on my benefits to live. I would like to study something from a distance learning college but I can’t fund this myself but I also can’t receive funding without it removing my benefits that I rely on.
I am so very very bored and I’m resentful of the fact that in two years I’ve achieved bugger all other than more disability.
I need some tips on what to do with my time (I need significant rest during the day so nothing too full on).
How can I “better” myself?
How can I get over the feeling of being left behind?
I want to achieve something! Anything that I can be proud of.
Does it bother you being on a low income? We manage and have some spare funds but it seems my full time working friends are in a different league to me.
How do you accept your lot in life?
I’m a positive person but I hear myself swearing to the heavens “ffs just give me a break!”.