Hi everyone,
Just wondering if anyone has any experience of ocd as I think I may possibly have it/have a form of it but I’m not totally sure as it’s not what I think of classic ocd so any advice/ experience would be helpful...
Over the past few years I have developed a debilitating perfectionism to the point where it interferes with my life. I constantly obsess over the state of the house and garden and feel compelled to keep tidying and cleaning things until it’s "perfect" but of course it never is so it never ends. I constantly feel dissatisfied with everything and see all the flaws in everything. I feel like I can’t do anything else until I have done all the cleaning, tidying, gardening etc. In the garden if something isn’t perfect eg if a plant dies or even just doesn’t look really good, I will basically dig it up and get something new. I’m spending hours each day fussing over the house to the detriment of spending time with my husband and daughter.
Could this be ocd or something else? I don’t think something bad will happen if I don’t do the cleaning but I feel very compelled to do it and feel uncomfortable/unhappy in myself if I don’t do it