I'm sitting outside the house in my car because there is no more room in my head for other people and their problems

[TedDansononmyown]

I can't face going in.
My head is close to bursting. I'm dealing with some particularly harrpwing family circumstances which are hideous, stressful and ongoing. I have to be available to take calls and 'talk' all the time.
ExH is refusing to cooperate with a parenting plan. More lawyers fees and stress.
House is falling apart.
Work is beyond stressful. I am everything to everybody and I've never felt more low about having t
Home is the last straw. I can't hear about how bad my DPs day was. I can't. There is literally no room left. It's not that I don't care, Ive just reached my tipping point.
I'm ignoring the calls. I just need a few hours of nothingness. I just need left alone.

There is zero purpose to this. I'm not expecting a magical solution. I just feel massively, massively alone.

You’re not alone op breathe

Hand holding

God I feel you, I was were you are last week

Handhold and willing to listen

I really feel for you. Such a hard time.....

Another one holding your hand Op. no real advise but Can you take yourself off somewhere? Go for a walk before it gets dark ect?

This too shall pass

That sounds awful. You deserve the alone time, don't feel guilty about sitting there alone for a while.

I completely understand. I said to my dh a couple of weeks ago that I have no room left in my head for any thoughts. I hope you're ok, some silence may help.

Oh heavens that bought back memories of parking up on the way home from work and feeling paralysed because I so didn’t want to go home and face everything. Slow and gradual steps to untangle messes, moving in the right direction was the only solution for me. I hope you find your pathway

Been known to hide in the toilet, the one without a light...

“All that arises passes away. This I know.”

stay in the car until you are ready to join life again. it gets overwhelming . Gofor a coffee if you can!

I would send a text to say “I need some time I will be back in a few hours. Don’t try to contact me” type things just to stop worrying and then take a few hours to do what you need to clear some space in your head

You poor thing.

You take the time and space that you need. Take some deep breath, listen to some music or a podcast or just sit in the peace and quiet.

We all need some alone time sometimes, and it sounds like you really need some right now.

Can you message your DP something like 'I have a massive headache, I'm going to have a walk and then just stick to essential things this evening. Apologies in advance if I'm not chatty'. Would that give you some head space for the rest of today at least?

Beyond today, is there anything someone else can pick up, or anything that can slide for a bit?

If everyone is safe, switch your phone off , maybe let DP know you are safe too. You may find that instead of leaning on you, some of these people/ things may find their own ways to resolve or deal with things. Can you block bits of your work calendar out too for breathing space?

How can you be a support to everyone else when you are drowning yourself op? You need to go and get a cuppa somewhere as pp have said xx

I have to do dinner and bed time and calls. I can't turn off as I'll then have the inevitable 30 missed calls and the guilt that comes with that.
Im just so, so tired