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I don't seem to be able to do anything right with my family - even when I actively go out of the way to do something nice it just causes arguments or I get criticised.

And then they always blame my mental health and I am starting to think this isn't actually a "me problem". I spend my whole life apologising, it's knocked my confidence and self esteem so much (literally didn't talk to anyone for months in fear of saying the wrong thing unexpectedly). Being accused of lying pretty much constantly by various people, mostly just being told regularly that I am a shit person though in various forms.

They keep giving me all these "rules" that I should be following but seriously none of them make any difference and I am being given them as they are aware I have a mental health condition but no one in the family is abiding by the same set of rules.

They are also super embarrassed that I do have a MH diagnosis as well.

I am just so stuck, and really, really fed up. I wish I had never told them about MH.

Not really sure what I am asking.

But open to advice?

I am back on the "not speaking" list possibly tonight but it could just be something simple like people were busy. I'll find out tomorrow if it's the latter.

You sound really unwell from your post. Have you spoken to your gp?

Who are your family, as in are you talking about parents and siblings or your partner and children?

Your situation sounds very difficult, I’m sorry you’re feeling so miserable.

@MoroSun I am actually not really unwell at all, despite my family saying this.

I have had this confirmed by psychiatrist, GP and wider mental health team... Some who I see weekly and some not for a while so it's a balance of people who know me well and those who don't know me well if that makes sense?

@NailsNeedDoing Parents and wider family - I split up with my partner a few months ago but nothing to do with this. However, it does mean I have zero support around me and I am not receiving any compliments or positive comments about myself or my achievements for days on end.

@MoroSun I am actually not really unwell at all, despite my family saying this.

Ah that old chestnut

@MoroSun Ok, it's totally fine if you don't believe that but I did actively go and ask to be assessed and there are people in the MH team that I communicate with frequently who haven't noticed any downwards spirals.

The situation is making me very anxious but it's not that I am going in to deliberately aggravate the situation.

One example is I have an insta account - I rarely use it but my family are on there. I took some photos one day and uploaded to insta and emailed to the people who I didn't think had insta. Turns out one of the people I emailed did have insta but couldn't see my feed.

After being accused of blocking them, huge argument coming out, why could another relative see the feed etc., they admitted that actually they had created a new insta account and hadn't requested to follow me.

They admitted this to me, but are still claiming to wider family I blocked them for no reason.

Literally had nothing to do with me and I have tried for hours and hours months ago to fix their original account which they told me they had done.

[quote MoroSun]**@MoroSun I am actually not really unwell at all, despite my family saying this.

Ah that old chestnut[/quote]
Wow. How incredibly supportive of you. Maybe fuck off if you don't have anything positive to say to someone clearly having a tough time?

It's OK. Similar attitude to the relatives i am talking about so used to it now