Has lockdown totally thrown you?

[Teenytinymum]

It has me.

Both Lockdown 1 and Lockown 3 has totally thrown me. I am a teacher with two infant school age children. We don't live near family.

I am somewhat humbled to see how badly I have dealt with the working from home/homeschooling etc. My housework goes to pot (messy, cluttered, always in need of a hoover and a wipe down). Have managed to stay on top of food shops, meal planning and cooking and the laundry, thank goodness.

First lockdown I was prescribed fluoxetine. Still taking now. It is due to the anxiety I felt at the time and the pressure of managing everything on my own. My kids and I are pretty rubbish at home schooling, we have some SEN thrown into the mix. It hasn't gone well at all. Also feel I am not performing as well as I'd like in my day job.....it's constant pressure.

I end up every other day with migraine type headaches where I just have to grab a snooze on the sofa whilst the kids watch yet more TV. I get diarrhoea regularly as a response to the stress.

I can't quite believe how badly I seem to be coping with it. I have managed to wean myself off booze (drank quite a bit in first lockdown-to cope but it ultimately made me worse). So I suppose hat's a positive

It has exhausted me so much, it doesn't feel normal to be this tired by it. Does anyone else feel this way?

If it's anything like the first lockdon, I won't "bounce back" from it. It will take me a couple of months to feel mentally stronger again.

I thought that in the face of adversity I'd be a bit togher than this. As it is, I'm a bit ashamed at myself! I always imagine other have "got this" and are doing a great job at it all.

Please share your experiences if you have also felt like me? X

Anyone? X

I've buried myself in work and feel a bit horrified to realise almost a year has past where I've hidden away from the world, put a screen in front of my kids and had far too many take out deliveries than I care to admit.

Give yourself a pat on the back OP!

I think it's not you, it is simply too much for one person to cope with. Please don't be hard on yourself. Hopefully it will be over soon.

I’ve put on two stone.

My husband and I are separated and he makes comments about things with me and the children. I always put him in his place telling him that we are getting through lockdown as best we can.

My house is a home where the three of us are spending extended amounts of time. It's not going to be a show home! The children are having take out once a week. There's very little else we can do for a treat!

This isn't forever. Don't be hard on yourself.

Lockdown one wasn’t as much of a problem as this one, I love working, I always have since I was 14 and never even thought about not working. The first lockdown was a bit of a novelty, was good weather so was a lot to do in the garden which we got done to keep us busy. 2nd lockdown was only a month and the kids were still at school so I kept to some sort of routine. This one has fucked me... homeschooling was a lot easier but I’ve still had enough, no work again and weather not really friendly enough to go out, even if I have. I’ve not worked for 6 months and I hate it. DS has asd and he requires routine so having him at home out of routine when it’s already changed twice in the last year was very challenging. I only ever take 2 weeks holiday a year and kids bdays so I’m very dedicated. I want to go back to work ☹️ (Btw I’m furloughed)

@mistletoeandwhine

Me too x