I should be 10 weeks pregnant today with my first baby but I had some pain and went for an early scan yesterday to be told that the baby looked only 6.5weeks but had no heartbeat. I was devastated as we'd tried for so long to get pregnant. I'm 36 years old so fear I've left it a little late. It was made even more difficult by the fact that you cant take anyone with you for support because of covid so was on my own and couldn'treally take in what the nurse was telling me.
I have to go back tomorrow to pick up the tablets to insert myself at home to hurry the process along. I'm terrified of the pain and the amount of blood but luckily my partner and I have the rest of the week off work.
I am so scared that if we try for another baby that this will happen again, I'm scared of how long it will take to get pregnant again. I'm just in a really miserable place at the moment. We were so happy to be expecting our first child and had I not made a fuss about seeing someone because of the pain, I'd still think i was pregnant. I kept being told it was just stretching pains even though I was told that stretching pains were in the middle of your tummy and my pains were always on the sides.
Anyway, I will stop going on. I just needed to get this off my chest.