I really struggled with it all today

[orientalknife]

Not sure why I'm posting. Many have it a lot worse and I've actually been really strong and positive on the main.

But today I just wanted to run away and to scream and cry. I worry so much for our children. I grieve for the old ways that I miss. I feel angry and confused between being anti lockdown and of course wanting to be selfless and do my bit

I have two wonderful kids but there's no respite. Trying to keep my business going. Husband on zoom calls constantly

I did see a rainbow on my walk though. I love rainbows

I think we all need days like this, as awful as they are. On the couple of occasions I've felt really bad, the next day I've felt much more positive and able to carry on. There are better times to come and each day brings them closer, cling on to that!

It is exhausting having children around constantly. I love mine beyond words and enjoy their company, but I am desperate for some time away from them. Leave me alone with your constant needs!!

For now, find something that brings you joy (wine, a book, a favourite jumper, a funny video on YouTube) and hang on in there. I hope you feel better

Thank you
These words mean a lot
There is still kindness

If it helps I was the same. DH broke his leg a month ago and DD6 is verbally lashing out so much, and today I just couldn't take it again. I ended up ugly crying in Tesco and a lovely click and collect lady asking if I was ok. No, no I'm not.

How you feel is completely valid, we are all going through so much. I hope that this experience will ultimately bring people closer together, although it doesn't seem that way at the moment does it? It will get better though - pandemics always end, and no storm lasts forever.

I can’t tell you to feel better because how you feel is completely valid. Personally I’m coming out of the fog of it all, I had DD in August, was in the throes of PND by October and between medication, the vaccine news, exercise, DD sleeping better, lighter days etc I am coming out of the worst of it.

I can’t imagine how hard what you’re going through is, but all I would say - as some very kind MNers said to me in December/January when I was borderline suicidal -

Nothing lasts forever. You will feel better. It’s impossible to envisage this right now, but you will. Happiness doesn’t last forever and neither does sadness.

Sending hugs and solidarity. This too will pass, but you’re within every right to rage, cry and all the rest while you feel like this.

I thought I was getting the vaccine soon due to having asthma and then the goalposts changed and now we are all having it alongside everyone else. I also had a cry today.

Some days it’s harder than others. No judgement, just for everyone struggling

I don’t have much to add but just to let you know that you are not alone in how your feeling. It’s shitty weather, dark in the evening, no end in sight for lockdown, feels relentless. I get it. Hoping you can find some time for you in the evenings. Bay steps to getting through this shitshow.