I have been struggling lately, as most of us have for a variety of reasons.
My DH is away with work, I am trying to juggle working a new job with a period of isolation with 2 year old DS. It's been hard today, I have felt guilty for not being able to take him out, play with him and read or whatever, but he has been safe, warm and fed which I know is the minimum but it was the best I could do.
We were having a cuddle before bedtime, and DS kept yanking my glasses off. The first few times I said no calmly and explained we don't pull glasses etc. But he did it a forth time and I shouted at him. I just said 'i said no', but it was definitely in a louder, more shouty manner than I have spoken to him before (the rare times I have felt this way before, I usually pop him somewhere safe like his cot and then just take a minute so I don't end up shouting).
He cried, and reasonably I know that I did say no several times, but I feel absolutely awful. I cuddled him and said I am sorry, I popped him in his cot as he was tired and he went to sleep okay. But I have been sat crying.
Logically I know it's an overreaction on one hand, but on the other I just feel like I should have been able to compose myself, and I'm worried he will remember it and it will affect him.
Is lockdown stress getting to me?