Bit of background
Left school in 2000. Had a college place to do childcare. But in the summer I got a full time job. Well let just say I enjoyed it and loved the money. It was retail and the company was great to work for then.
Has ds 6 years later. I left to be a sahm.
2 yrs later me and dcs father spilt.
I was on income support for 2 years.(couldn't afford childcare and had no help) Then returned to my old job, which by then it had changed. Management was crap. But it paid the bills and loved the people.
Then I met my now dh. In 2015. Still hating my job but due to MH I never had the oomph to look for another. By 2017 I hated the job. Rarely went to work as signed off a lot with MH and we were expecting a dc (fertility treatment)
2018 we had a dc.. Dh then had a better job and I didn't need to work. So I decided to take 4 years off until she starts school which was all discussed prior to ttc,
2019 felt in a good place to think of a career and go to do an evening course
And bam. Fell pregnant with ds, totally shocked as was told we'd not conceive naturally.
So I'm now a sahm with a teen. A nearly 3 year old and a 1 year old.
My brain now feels like mush.. I could go back to my hated job in a flash when I feel I need to but in a different location but with same great people. But I know I'd be there and never leave
Or I could do a course. Use my brain. But I don't know what.
It's been over 20 years since school. I had all a to c gcses. So wasn't a bad learner.
I've looked online and then I feel over whelmed.