I’m done, I feel physically stressed out to the max. Old mental health issues are hammering my head and I’m struggling to keep the very bad thoughts at bay.
My parents are pushing for me to go stay with them to help out with the young DC. DH is firmly against it because it’s not allowed. I feel torn in two. DH had a bit of a breakdown before Christmas and it’s been so so hard. He’s made massive progress, he was shouting over stupid stuff and it was getting to the kids, but has calmed down now and is working hard to work through his stuff.
But I feel crushed now. Honestly can’t get out of bed because my whole body hurts with the anxiety. I can’t think straight and I’m sure I’ve made it worse by deciding to go to parents then changing my mind 100 times. Kids are having a Netflix marathon but I feel like such a failure.
I’m too scared to leave the house to go for walks, there is no where to go anywhere - we aren’t allowed to go out in the car.
Please someone help me with what to do.