Perhaps addiction is not quite right but I have a real habit around craving and drinking coke, the full sugar kind. I suffer with regular migraines and a can of coke can really help either with treating the migraine and making the meds work faster or as a pick me up after a migraine giving me a much needed easy energy boost as migraine medication can induce fatigue.
It’s not just the migraines though it’s that drinking coke is tied up in my mind with the Friday and Saturday nights of my childhood, of summer holidays, sunny days, finishing Uni for the week. I don’t drink alcohol or smoke so I think coke is my de-stressor.
It’s not good for me though, I don’t drink it everyday but I have it several times a week sometimes just a can sometimes I have three cans. I’ve gained a lot of weight from my habit and I know it causes mr stomach issues. Also going to the shops to buy a cold can means I’ll often pick up a bag of crisps or a chocolate bar to go with it which is just more junk and calories I don’t need.
Recently I’ve been finding I just don’t enjoy fruit anymore as it’s not sweet enough to satisfy me, I need sugary or salty things like crisps to feel satisfied. I am spending too much money on this stuff, at least £40 in January was spent on coke and snacks outside my normal supermarket shop when I buy general snack foods for the house. I tend to not eat those things except at the weekend with other family members as I do conceal my coke and snacking habits from the rest of the family. I feel embarrassed at the local shop now going in to buy get more coke so sometimes walk much further to buy things in different shops so I don’t seem so obvious to my local shops. I make excuses in my head in case people challenge me about what I’m buying!
I was in the shop the other week, looking at reduced cakes and next to me were two other women one younger one older both with baskets full of coke and treat snack food both were very overweight and I felt like we were all probably the same addicted to coke and crap food.
I’m trying to stay off the coke this week at least and haven’t had a can since Saturday but it’s hard!