Hi all. Just wondered if anyone had been, or is in the same position as me. If so how how did it pan out? I'm 39 this year and my partner is 44. I have an 15 year old son from previous and so does my other half. He also has an older son, but lives a miles away and we only see him a couple of times a year. We did discuss more children when I was pregnant with my now 4 year old and we were both undecided, but 3 months after having my girl he booked a vasectomy. I was unsure as felt it was too soon to decide... I was knackered and recovering from a C section, so wasn't my priority then. I will also add to this I'm the only child and I lost my dad suddenly only a few months before giving birth, so I was not in the right frame of mind. Prior to his appointment to have the snip, I called him to say just see what your options are first. He came out and he'd had it done, his response was "I can have a reversal". Anyway fast forward on to last year, I was starting to think about having one more, but he has said he doesn't want anymore, no reversal, that's final, job done. Anyway I have tried to bumble on, but it has been in the back of my mind. Last week my close friend messaged me to tell me she was pregnant and it totally floored me. Ended up in tears all night. I think it's because my time is running out age wise, my girl starts school in September and I would just love one last experience of being a mom again before it's too late. I feel so fed up. I know my daughter has older siblings, but she is like an only child as they don't bother with her, because of the age gap. My friend who is pregnant also has a daughter the same age as mine and we regularly meet up (pre covid), so once things are back to some sort of normality I will be around her hearing all about the pregnancy (she doesn't know how I'm feeling, I feel too embarrassed to say.). Also I know my daughter once she starts seeing her friend she will start asking if she can have a baby brother/sister. I'm in such a rubbish situation 😕 Any advice, words of wisdom, same experiences etc would be greatly received.