I kind of got caught out gossiping at work today. I fessed up some of it to my manager and he was fine about it, but I didn’t tell him everything (although nothing I said was terrible, just a vent to the wrong person).
The problem is that my body has just reacted so badly. I feel sick, my stomach is in knots, my head hurts. Every now and then I start to shake and sweat. I couldn’t eat dinner. I had a really stressful weekend with COVID worries and family stuff after a couple of months of feeling ‘near the edge’ and I just feel this minor thing has tipped me over.
I feel paralysed. Incapable of doing anything now or tomorrow. I just want to curl in a ball and die.
I’ve never had anxiety or depression or panic attacks, but this is just awful. What can I do? I can’t face my kids tomorrow, never mind work. I just feel like I’ve got nothing left in the tank. Does that make sense?
Can anyone help calm me down?