Hi everyone,
First Post but a long time lurker and love reading all the threads.
So basically I need my hand held or a good shake/slap. This is probably going to be long and disjointed so apologies in advance.
So 3 weeks ago I was rushed into hospital with a suspected ectopic, I had pain in my right side and shoulder with arm pains. I was kept in for the night for obs and was sent home after doctor cleared it feeling my belly saying he couldn't feel anything. The next night I had bleeding which got heavy as the night went on, I was miscarriaging so I rang gyne back up and the nurse told me to come in so in I went expecting to have a scan ect just to make sure it was defo a miscarriage and not an ectopic as I had pain in right side and bleeding, now I'm not one to talk bad about our NHS especially in these current circumstances but the doctor was the rudest lady I've ever met, she done me an internal (sorry TMI) and said okay pop your trousers back on the pain was a cyst (no scan) and left i got dressed and sat in the room waiting for her return after 5 minutes I went out to find out where she was, I found her at her desk writing a report I ask if I was allowed to leave, she said yes and turned around not even saying bye. Im none the wiser and just went home I was feeling awful and just wanted to get home to my kids, that night my anxiety was through the roof i was so nervous and scared I was having an ectopic pregnancy and running the possibilities over and over in my mind, I was dizzy sick couldn't keep anything down and still in pain the next day I went to a&e thinking something terrible was happening, the told me my blood completely clear again no scan was offered. I went home and my anxiety got worse and worse to the point of panic attacks I had to ring my husband to come home from work twice (I have 2 disabled children who couldn't help me if I collapsed ect) now having enough of being dizzy sick tired not being able to eat still on pain right side I went to my gp as I was so anxious and stressed I had no idea what the hell was going on was it a miscarriage was it an ectopic why am I so dizzy what is a cyst? Nothing had been explained to me previously and my mind was going mental. GP done an internal took bloods (all clear) and told me she would get me a scan to put my mind at rest. I also told her I felt like I had thrush or a uti (again tmi) coming but said where I'd had lots of internals and was wearing pads it might have been the cause, I felt finally someone listened to my concerns and doing something about it, 2 days later I started going to the toilet but only a trickle would come out so done as the doctor said and spoke to a nurse she gave me antibiotics and told me to do a swab and wee test, over the weekend I was thinking why aren't these antibiotics working I was stressing myself out completel, come Monday my results were back from wee test all clear so why am I only doing a trickle then? Well the next nights were awful I couldn't empty my bladder for love nor money and I was getting more and more stressed until I had a panic attack again hardly slept and cried most of the night. Rang the doctors again and this time was a different doctor I told her everything broke down In tears, she told me I was suffer severe stress and anxiety and put me on antidepressants and referred me to counselling, done me an internal again and said she feels something although I'm not surprised I had been straining for a wee for 2 nights and felt like id pulled something. She told me I was having physical symptoms of anxiety so here comes the real point of my post is that, I can't eat or when I do I feel full quickly I had abandoned pain still although not as bad at all I hardly notice it, and always on the loo, now I'm completely and totally terrified I have ovarian cancer because of my cyst and other symptoms even though it could all be down to my anxiety....im completely overwhelming and scared, my scan is Monday and I'm dreading it! Any advice or words of wisdom would be hugely appreciated, I have 2 very dependant children and it scares me half to death that I may have cancer 