BLUE MONDAY....how are we all ?

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Me ? Hanging on.

@DameCelia borderline personality disorder , although I believe it’s called something different now. She was having counselling but this has stopped due to the counsellor not being available at the moment.

Kind of OK (after months of dark, dark depression) but slightly miffed at being referred to as a "good girl" and "my darling" by an MRA/pandemic denier this morning while I was walking my dog. (a certain type of) men really hate middle aged women don't they.

Fed up really. Want it to be Spring, but also hate the fact I'm wishing my life away.

Fed up of my job if I'm honest, retail is going to pot because of covid, which makes for tetchy and angry clients (marketing). People aren't spending enough money online to cover the lost money for shop rent, and there's nothing we can do. Ahhhh, is it Friday yet?

@LApprentiSorcier agree it is a marketing invention but feeling low in January is not uncommon even if no pandemic.

Simplest step that could be taken to help everyone would be to stop putting clocks back in winter- daylight until almost time for dinner/tea or whatever you term your evening meal would help a lot of people.

Ah I wondered why I felt so crappy today! @spiderlight another one with a banjaxed back over here...woke up early, turned over and my back went into spasm. Tired, in pain, feel sick. Just me and the DC today. Home schooling and walk done...would AIBU to just have tv on the rest of the day??

Determined to start moving in the right direction again after 3 years of illness leading to anxiety and depression. Am 30wks pregnant and starting to feel more motivated by the thought of my baby girl being here and want to be the best version of myself for her!

I took the dog for a muddy squelch around the fields this morning and could lots of birds singing which sounded very much like spring is coming.

Blue...

Fed up really. The weather forecast for rain and more rain mid week hasn't helped.

I too long for the spring and pay day. January is loooooooong.

Not so bad. I was plunged into a stinking mood at 20:03pm on Mon 4th Jan, and my rythmns and routines were turned upside. I seem to be crawling out of the other side of it depending on how shit the homeschooling is going. I didn't emerge from bed until midday on Friday and was honest with the teacher about why I hadn't logged DS on.

I've had a better weekend.
The bird song seems to be getting going again.
The bulbs that I planted in October as a symbol of hope for spring have their tips poking through.
It is light until and past 4pm and creeping closer towards 4;30.
Managed to get out to the local mud-swamp/ park and get the kids running around.
Meeting a friend for a run later.

It's not plain sailing, but there are signs of more, better days coming.

To be fair our Monday is a little bluer today than usually.
Dh off work due to a sickness bug, dd my washing machine decided to flood my kitchen and my dds radiator keeps tripping out in her bedroom. Just one of those days where one things go badly and everything else seems to follow.

Both DH and I got positive C19 tests this morning. Feel pretty grim, and have to be signed off work again... I'd only just made it back to work last week after several months off for a pretty comprehensive breakdown! So not looking forward to SI with two young children.
Still, this is only the 5th time we've had to do it since mid Nov

At the end of my tether homeschooling four DC, two of whom have additional needs and need one to one support for home learning. I am one person being pulled in four different directions, six if you count the house and other caring responsibilities, so you can imagine how well that is going.

Ok today, to be honest. Last Monday was much harder.

I am actually okay, but I have put some goals in place this week as last week was a disaster and I felt so sad every day.

This week is better, to be fair it couldn't be much worse than the misery of last week.

I am going out more often to get a break from the house, I started an on line course I longed to do and actually am making great progress, I am getting more sleep. Nothing ground shattering but it is helping.

Just about to work out.