Am I being silly?

[Itllpass]

I have been offered vaccination through work. We get a text and need to book appointment. I’ve not been feeling ok for a while and I need sometime to figure things out. My marriage is not great and work is extra stessful...so I need a breather
Coming to the vaccination I’m not an anti Vader but wanted to read up a little and prepare myself. I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. Since I haven’t had the time I didn’t book the appointment immediately, now when I check it says no slots available.
I’ll ring work tomorrow and find out information on how to get back in the queue. But when I got the text I told my husband as he just went ‘go ahead and take it’, I then told him of the above and needing some time but he just made me feel like a fool in not jumping at it, he said something along the lines of if it was me I’ll be there with my sleeves rolled up.
He never gives much importance or thought about feelings of mine, he says he doesn’t understand it but it just made me feel worse.

Not sure why I’m typing this but just want to get it off my chest. sad

Not sad at all - I’m not sure how il feel either when my invite to get the vaccine comes through. I think il have it but doesn’t mean it’s not scary when it’s such a new thing. Your dh isn’t being very helpful if he knows you’re suffering from anxiety/panic attacks - he could’ve been more understanding.

The general consensus on here seems to be that you’re an idiot if you don’t run into the surgery with your sleeve rolled up on being offered the vaccine, but I know many people in rl who are worried/apprehensive and I think that is natural - especially when you’re being offered it in the first wave.

If it helps at all, my 82yo very ill uncle had his 2nd jab last week and has been absolutely fine - I spoke to him earlier and he was in fine spirits. I believe if you’re going to suffer any kind of reaction it happens pretty quickly (I,e. Whilst you’re still in the surgery). The decision is entirely yours, but I’m sure you’ll be fine.

Thank you for your kind words @Robbybobtail
Yes what people say and then do when things present itself can differ. I didn’t expect to be invited this soon so it did take me by surprise, yes he didn’t give any thought about how I felt more like ‘you are such a fool to miss this opportunity’ but that’s how my marriage is...wish I got married to someone who u sweatbands me as supposed to seeing me as some kind of a machine built to work/look for opportunities/work towards making our lives better etc...