NC but regular poster! At least recently with lockdown boredom 
I don’t know if I’m being unfair on my friend here. Just want some upfront advice and viewpoints.
My relationship ended last year and the first lockdown was horrendous. I was unbearably lonely and shaken by the end of the relationship and couldn’t see a way forward. This friend was there for me. She supported me and saw me and was in touch. FWIW she has had a very dark time in the past and I did the same for her.
Obviously now we are in a third lockdown. I have rarely heard from her even when I have reached out and suggested I am feeling lonely. I’m not one for begging for attention and I don’t feel comfortable spelling it out when I need someone, so maybe that’s my failing. But she knows I am alone and a long way from family. She knows I am working from home and go days without contact.
I’m just feeling a bit hurt by it I guess. I don’t need constant attention and pre covid I was and am very independent. I suppose I can give off the vibe I’m ok when I’m not. But what gets to me is that she knows I am alone and she knows I’m finding it a bit shit. The last I heard from her was her telling me her and her partner were really enjoying lockdown and having down time.
I don’t know. Am I being unfair to expect more here?