Posting under an old username as I know a few people IRL on mumsnet.
I am coming here to have a purely selfish woe is me rant. Anyone else want to rant about the epic shitness of life right now, please join in!
I'm fed up of being locked up at home. I'm fed up of trying to home school my 7 year old while I have a 2 year old who literally does not LEAVE me alone for more than 5 minutes without having to be bribed with food.
I am so fed up of juggling childcare, schoolwork, housework and any sort of "me time" I can grasp at. I honestly fantisize about just running away sometimes.
The only time I get peace and quiet during the day is when I'm at work (2 days a week). DP works 5 days a week, on slightly reduced hours and when he gets home he takes over, looks after the kids and sorts dinner. He tries his best, but I've just had another one of my ranty crying calls to him after work and I know he is frustrated he can't be here more, or that nothing he says seems to help.
2 year old DD is the most shouty, aggresive and demanding little beastie you could ever meet. I love her so much, which is lucky for her as otherwise I would have put her in the sea by now. I can't deal with the screaming and the hitting when she doesn't get her own way and the constant requests for food, juice, Fireman Sam etc. The unbelievable tantrum she had this morning when I told her a chocolate reindeer was not a healthy breakfast was something to behold. She hit the kitchen cupboard in protest and then cried even louder because she had hurt her hand 
Quite honestly, and I know this is awful to say, she is a bit of a brat and I don't know how to deal with it.
My mental health is slipping again, after the last lockdown I worked hard to get to a better place and we are ONE WEEK into this lockdown and I'm back to being an angry, stressed out sobbing mess sitting on my bedroom floor hiding from the children.
DP said something has to give, which I know is right, but I feel guilty if I don't do DDs schoolwork, I feel guilty if I don't try and play with DD2, guilty if we skip our daily walk, guilty if I don't do that days housework. DP said to leave the housework but I just don't think he knows how much it gets to me when it isn't done, and how much I hate living in a mess! I never used to be houseproud but when DD2 was born I suffered with PND and having my house immaculate suddenly became a priority to me. It still is, I can't just "leave it" as that means more work the next day and twice the stress.
screamsintopillow
And after that, I am done 