Up and anxious, 4.30am. Why are you up?

[coffeeandbooks]

Really struggling tonight with my anxiety. I have a stomachache and I'm emetophobic so really scared of potentially vomiting 😭

My partner and I had an argument just now too so that's really not making me feel good either.

Anyone else awake?

@snappyoldfartpants thanks for the suggestion. Having had a second DVT while on a high dose of Innohep injections and now still having high blood calcium which can also cause calcification of the hearts arteries I'm not going to start HRT. My total abdominal hysterectomy was in June 2016 anyway and I've survived so far! A second operation to remove my remaining overactive parathyroid gland/s is what I need to reverse all the health problems I currently have.

DH's alarm went off at 4. Didn't get back to sleep and mine was set for 5 anyway.

Now on the train and need coffee 😴

I woke up with laboured breathing, temp and painful swallowing; I'll give 119 a call later if it doesn't clear and see if they can send a test.

So I went to take a shower, tried to read a book and need breakfast soon.

@Frownette

@Bluewavescrashing is there anything worrying you?

Yes. I'm an infant school teacher. Home learning, parents, meetings, risks, bleurgh 🙄