the song "all by myself" has never resonated so much
i'm with a lovely guy who is my everything. But I feel sick deep in the pit of my stomach because I just can't imagine marrying and having kids with him. I escaped a dead end place for my university and have stayed here for 8 years since graduating. My partner is the only person I know here now. I don't know anyone else but love the place.
I feel like a child who needs her mum. I called my mum but she was busy watching a program and didn't want to talk. Although I have friends I don't want to burden them because they have their own struggles and have never invited me talking about difficulties.
My partner and I run a business together, so if I broke things off I could lose everything. It would also break my heart twice over breaking his heart.
Can anyone guide me? Has anyone felt this sickness and been in a similar position?