I’ve had an ongoing upper back problem since I pumped for my twins. Most of the time it’s manageable but two or three times a year it flares up so badly I can’t move and am in agony and need a short course of diazepam to be able to manage to do my daily exercises. My twins are 4 but both have disabilities so need lots of lifting for changes etc - they’re at school now and getting that break from the lifting helps massively. But during lockdown 1 and now in the Christmas holidays it has flared up.
This time it started on Christmas Eve. I absolutely dread when this happens because aside from the pain, the worst thing about it is having to contact the GP and ask for medication because they always talk to me like I’m some kind of drug addict. I am already on morphine and naproxen for another condition, which do absolutely nothing for my back when it’s like this. Have been on them a long time, they regularly reduce it or extend the length between scripts even though I’m very responsible with it (all other options have been tried so I’m left with this basically).
This time I put off calling hoping that resting would be enough but by NYE I couldn’t breathe properly without pain (definitely muscular, not COVID) so I called.
I made it clear I don’t specifically want diazepam - I just want something that will help so I can get moving again but they always give me diazepam anyway.
It’s really annoying that the thing that works for my back is something that people take recreationally - I wish it was something else so I could have a supply in, and deal with it as soon as it starts rather than put it off because of the reaction.
Is there such a thing as muscle relaxants that don’t have the same effects as diazepam? Or something else helpful when it’s really bad. Maybe anything that works to relax muscles will make you feel this way?
Only thing GPs have done is refer me for two short courses of physio sessions - no scans or anything like that. They say that even slipped discs in the upper back don’t cause pain so it must just be muscular, and given diazepam works maybe they are right, but perhaps there’s an underlying issue. I have constant altered sensation in the skin on my upper back, which has spread from a small patch to my whole upper back and I get pins and needles in my hands and neck when it’s bad, and part of my spine is tender to touch. Maybe I need to push for a scan or pay for one myself somehow - most of the time I can manage it but when it’s like this i can’t function.