Is this normal?

[Seejaay]

Is it normal that i never want to leave my baby alone I fear that if I do something bad is going to happen, I’m forever checking on her, always poking to make sure she’s breathing, if I’m not in the same room I take the camera with me and closely watching to see if I see her cheats moving up and down if she’s asleep and if I don’t I rush to the room to check. I was never like this with my first but sinse having dd 2 months ago I’m so scared something bad is going to happen to her, I’m barley getting any sleep as I’m forever waking up to check on her and always scared that if I sleep and don’t watch her I’m going to wake up and she won’t be breathing.

No it’s not normal if it’s making you feel anxious and have worrying thoughts about something bad happening.

As mothers of course we worry and we want to be with our infant as much as possible but you are obsessing, fretting and making your self ill with worry and irrational fears.

It may pass but you would be wise to speak to your GP and explain that your state of health is giving cause for concern.

I hope it does pass as like i say I never felt like this with my first so unsure why I do worry so much this time round, I did the normal check on her make sure she’s okay sort of thing but can never remember feeling like this, if I mention something to a gp I’m unsure of what to actually say and if it would look bad on me, I’m hoping someone can say they’ve felt the same in the past and give me their experience and hope it’s not just me

This sounds like my PND

Oh op, I totally hear you. I was pretty chilled with dd1 too despite her requiring emergency hospital admission at less than a week old. I thought I’d totally nailed this parenting lark and when dd2 arrived, I turned into someone I didn’t recognise. Exactly as you describe, the constant checking and worrying even loitering about with a thermometer checking her temperature. At my usual mother and baby gp check my very clever doctor spotted something with me and had me fill out a questionnaire. I was quickly diagnosed as having postpartum anxiety, he was great at reassuring me and told me it was much more common than I thought and prescribed anti anxiety medication (this really did help). I still suffered during weaning (convinced she’d choke), constantly worrying about her getting hurt but because I knew what it was it kind of helped if that makes sense. Dd2 is 4 now and I’m still over protective but try really hard not to project on to her. So, first thing contact your gp and just be totally honest, according to my own doctor there are even many in their profession who suffer from it. Good luck, I really do know how you feel but you’ll come out the other side.