Dreading starting my new job

[natalienewname]

I ended a job in Oct. It was flexible and well paid although boss was a bullying maniac. I hated it, my stress levels were sky high.

Anyway, I was offered a new role. I really didn't want to take it, but DH said it would be worth taking it and seeing how bad it really was. He thinks I will be bored at home (not untrue but I'd cope with this)

The company has a truly awful reputation, the benefits, pay, holiday are all poor. Entirely inflexible. The work culture is known for being very intense, high pressured, high targets. Lots of firing people and being open about it. And whilst the company has a positive line with the press, it's got some dodgy legal stuff going on in the background.

I'm meant to start in Jan. I'm dreading it. I haven't even filled in my payroll info as I just can't bring myself to do it.

Obviously if we needed the money I would take it and suck it up, but we very fortunately absolutely don't need the money. The job won't make a dent in our finances, I'll spend most of it on childcare.

I know the grown up thing to do it go in there with a positive attitude but I can't summon any. Can anyone help me suggest how I can face it on Monday? Help!!

Why not quit? You don’t need to do it and the damage to your MH probably isn’t worth it.

Just sack it off, life's too short to put yourself in miserable situations when it's completely unnecessary

Why on earth would you put yourself through that? Your children will be in childcare while you do a job you hate and find stressful and there won't be any extra money. You'd have to be crazy to do that.

If you don’t need the money then it seems unnecessary to put yourself through it. Clearly you aren’t keen and you’ve given several good reasons why this is. The right job will be out there for you but you seem fairly sure that it isn’t this one.

No point taking the job if you'll end up having to use it all on childcare.

Unless DH is paying towards the cost?

You haven't even started yet, you don't know what it will actually be like until you do. You sound like you're catastrophising.

@Lemonpiano

You haven't even started yet, you don't know what it will actually be like until you do. You sound like you're catastrophising.

Yes, that's pretty much it, I take a Daily Mail approach to internal drama....things are always worse in my head.

Any tips for approaching this as the nature professional they think they've hired for this key role?