I feel this awful sense of impeding doom. I’ve had a few stressful events - getting married (happy but stressful), dd in hospital, a falling out with my mum and abusive messages from my brother. There was a misunderstanding over paying an invoice to the church and we’ve apologised and settled in full with an extra donation and thank you card. But I feel like the wedding was cursed somehow and everything has gone wrong and we can’t fix it. I know that doesn’t make sense.
I feel sad and super anxious. I didn’t have my mum at the wedding and I posted the background on here and got a lot of support - but I’m feeling awful now - really guilty and it’s something I can never take back
I just feel anxious and unsettled. I’m not sleeping properly and haven’t for weeks now really. I just want to make everything ok again and I feel like I can’t.
We are waiting for CAMHS support for dd and she desperately needs it - it looks like she won’t even have the structure of school for the first two weeks. So I’ve got to keep myself together and support her, but I don’t know how to unpick the way I’m feeling.
Has anyone been through this or got some strategies for dealing with it? I should be really happy but everything feels a bit bleak. I imagine lots of people are struggling with lockdown at the moment.