What would happen if I told GP about suicidal thoughts?

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Just that really? I tried contacting a counselling service (via email) moths ago but never heard back. I'm really desperate to talk to someone as I'm struggling so much, so I was thinking about phoning GP and telling them how bad I've been feeling, in the hope that they'll refer me.
But now I'm worried if I mention things like suicidal thoughts what they'll do? I have a son, so would they think I'm an unfit mother and call social services? It's not as though I'm going to do anything to harm myself but I've been having these thoughts very regularly and I'm so depressed and sad.
Thanks in advance for any advice.

Well done OP. That first step is the hardest to take. I’m wishing you all the very best. I will say though, that it may get harder once you start therapy or medication. I don’t say this to scare you...just that some people think it isn’t working when it just hasn’t had time to.
It sounds like you have a lot going on and lots to work through and it may be really difficult at first. Also progress isn’t necessarily linear and setbacks happen...but again it’s all part of the process. Hang in there and just take everything one step at a time

I won't be able to call them tonight as DS dad will be listening. He also doesn't like me just going for walks without a reason so I can't just nip out especially at night. But I will be going food shopping alone tomorrow and will phone then... I am early 30s and live with my son and his dad. It isn't a good relationship though and I can't really speak to him about it. He has a way of twisting things and it confuses me as we just talk in circles. I don't have much contact with my family either.
Sorry you are struggling op, but your partner sounds like he's a big part of this. He is not your keeper, he shouldn't be dictating when you go out for a walk. He sounds very abusive and controlling. I second talking to woman's aid, and look into the relationships board on here you'll find lots of support and advice on there.
Hope talking to the Samaritans can help you. Keeping everything crossed for you

How are you doing op?

I totally get that you can't phone whilst DC Dad is around, sorry to hear this OP. Woman's Aid is a great suggestion too.

If you get a chance you can also email the Samaritans, there is a 24hr response time. It may help to write things out and tell them how you feel and what is going on. People on the outside can always help us fight our way through the fog when we either cannot see it or trust our own judgement any more. I hope you're coping okay considering!

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Good luck OP. You are being very brave.

It sounds like some counselling could really help you too.

Take good care of yourself.