I'm trying my best as life but I'm a bit befalling ... please join me if you're not the bees knees amen and You. Know it

[Iwonder777]

I'm 42

Love my dc

But I'm no where near ' worldly successful'

For those of us who paddle hard, with little apparent 'success', I want to send you my love this Christmas..,,, xxxc

What do you mean? What is success to you?

Your post is not clear
No one is perfect , we all fail and have down days some of us spectacularly
Recognising it and wanting to do better is first step

I'm 43, 44 next month, no kids, had a miscarriage at the beginning of the original lockdown and feel like a total and utter miserable failure and that I've messed my entire life up and don't want to go on living it anymore. Cambridge educated. First in my family to go to uni. Hasn't helped me feel much contentment or joy in my life.

It's been a constant slog and I can't believe it's meant to be as difficult as I seem to make it.

No idea what the thread is about. Probably not this.

I guess Just feel a bit of a loser in terms of 'worldly'stanxsrds

My kids are kind to me but I know,despite my best efforts, I can't provide for them what some parents can. Admittedly, that makes me feel shitty. By default.

@ChristmasBubble

I'm 43, 44 next month, no kids, had a miscarriage at the beginning of the original lockdown and feel like a total and utter miserable failure and that I've messed my entire life up and don't want to go on living it anymore. Cambridge educated. First in my family to go to uni. Hasn't helped me feel much contentment or joy in my life.

It's been a constant slog and I can't believe it's meant to be as difficult as I seem to make it.

No idea what the thread is about. Probably not this.

I'm really sorry about your Loss. That must have been awful. I hope you manage to fall pregnant again. Xxx

Wonder
and bubble, I hear you and feel the same. It's not materialistic or prizing things just cos others have them, it's a life of bungling and muddling and taking 10 hours to do something that should take 1, for me anyway

I'm glad I'm not alone. Thanks for answering. Xxx

Wishing you only well this Christmas xxxxx

@JustGiveMeTwoMinutes

Wonder and bubble, I hear you and feel the same. It's not materialistic or prizing things just cos others have them, it's a life of bungling and muddling and taking 10 hours to do something that should take 1, for me anyway

Thanks for being honest xxxxx

I don’t know how to say this without sounding harsh to anyone but just learn to just “be” I really don’t want to sound patronising saying this but iv had some truly shit times with one thing and another and have Been determined to move forward .

just a minuite ago had a quick scroll through Instagram n some of my friends honestly have these perfect lives n houses n marriages and seem so “together “ and in the past I’d have been all jealous but honestly something has changed with
Me this year I’m fine as I am and happy with it . Dyspraxic , single , clumsy, disorganised But kind , fun and bringing my dc up to be good people . I got fit , tried new things as much as possible during a pandemic anyway , I try to take something good from every day now and plan to travel more when we can and enjoy things as Much as Possible ( iv had absolutely crushing depression in the past so am probably coming from a place of just been happy to not feel like that now)

@ChristmasBubble not trying to downplay your experience btw I have also had a miscarriage and it’s heartbreaking

Don’t compare yourself with others I think is key

Nothing as major as others on here but..

Today's my birthday. Mum rang to wish me Happy Birthday, then it somehow turned into me going to uni(again) doing this,doing that, take that subject you'd be good at it(subject I wasn't even allowed to think about doing when I did go to uni) , I need to sort myself out and how I can't spend my whole life JUST being DD's mum.

I have a job ffs! Shitty ,poorly paid,whatever but it's a fucking job .