Namechanged for this, as I am feeling quite embarrassed 
This afternoon I am being delivered a food hamper from a food bank type place, the difference being is that the person delivering it is actually the person who offered to donate a full Christmas Day hamper, donors are given a list of potential matches to donate to, and she picked me.
I am really thankful that we will have enough food over the next few days, but I am feeling really uncomfortable about seeing this person. I am quite an anxious person anyway (understatement) and while money has been really tight over this past year (furloughed then lost job, waiting for a disability benefit appeal in January 21) I have managed to keep going without having to rely on foodbanks. Not that there's any shame in using them.
Years ago, in the days of MN secret Santa, I remember MN organising a huge Christmas hamper for me, which was absolutely amazing and full of wonderous food that I had never tried before 
so I am trying to think of the hamper today in a similar way, but again, the difference this time is that I actually get to meet the person donating and I have no idea what to say to her other than thank you. I worry that my nerves and anxiety will kick in and I will come across as rude, when in reality without her I don't think we would be having a Christmas dinner.
I am not sure what the point of my post is, I guess I am rambling, but just to say, to all those who do donate to food banks, us recipients are very very thankful. 