I’m struggling . I’ve got to somehow support DM, DGran and dsis .
Dsis is in supported accommodation and will spend xmas there . Spending Xmas at my gran’s with mum .
All have very, very different needs (age, autism, and mental illness) and I’m struggling massively to know what to do . Any support services take a break for Christmas ..
I’ve had phone calls all day from one or the other saying they’re upset because they’re not getting the Christmas they want . For example mum wants to make a Christmas cake ... so we did that ... Sister wants to open her presents early on Xmas day - but gran wants to watch mass with sister joining over FaceTime ... at a specific time . Have explained to gran sister is dictated to by what time her carers arrive/what she’s funded for . So gran has kicked off because I should force it .
Then there’s the food - one will eat one thing, other won’t, one doesn’t like ‘indulgence’, other wants to eat everything ...
I’m exhausted already and just want to cry . I’m anaemic, I’ve got bloods on Tuesday, dentist on Monday, I’ve got tinnitus (god knows why), all I want to do is cry or book a lovely hotel . Not an option at all .
I know I should count my blessings that I have family but I am getting myself so upset because I’m worried one or the other will be unhappy and it’ll be somehow my fault .
How can I make time for myself? I’ll get a separate room at my gran’s but not allowed to sit in there during the day - we spend all day in her kitchen/sitting room . Might be allowed to go for a walk at some point though .