Had a beautiful DC2 a couple of weeks ago and have wonderful 2 year old DC1 at home with me. Love them both more than anything and they are both just amazing. We've got into a reasonable routine getting out and about to DC1's (mostly outdoor!) activities and walking etc so are out a lot and so far am managing fine with housework and cooking etc too (will get harder as DC2 gets more aware so making most of it!) Usual newborn sleep deprivation going on but as DC1 only slept through a few months ago I'm quite used to it!
I feel very happy with our situation as know how lucky we are but I just feel very flat, I've been doing lots of Christmas stuff with DC1 today like making mince pies and decorating and just don't feel the Christmas joy like I always do, and I feel like I'm a bit of an empty useless mum even though I can't describe why I'd think that! I suppose I expected the newborn stage to be a happy bubble as with DC1 but appreciate its very different as not seeing friends and family like we were then.
I clearly don't have PND as functioning fine but I'm surprised to feel so constantly flat and low, and just want to see if there's anything I can do to nip it in the bud as want to be at my best for the DC. Also used to eat very healthily and having a real battle to keep it up (want to mostly as breastfeeding and want to have right nutrients) as I've gone from craving healthy things to just wanting rubbish.
I assume all of this is hormonal, will it just pass? Not complaining at all just as I say want to keep an eye on things so that it doesn't develop into something more! I worry that DH will be bored over Christmas with just me and the DC etc and wherever I'll be entertaining enough.. I've never felt like that before!