Sleep has become really problematic and is likely to remain that way for a while. Life has been a bit tough for us this year and not sleeping is my default setting when life is stressful (that and not eating but I have that a bit more under control at the moment). I don't know what to do. Sleeping tablets are only a short term fix and I already take amitriptyline for pain anyway so that should help shouldn't it? Life is likely to continue to difficult for a while yet and is going to get worse, DP has cancer, it's incurable and the average life expectancy is months not years. I don't know how to face the future. This weekend we are moving our foster baby to their new mummy and daddy's house so I almost feel like it is a double bereavement (over dramatic I know but the baby has been here for a year and I love them to bits but am so happy they have the chance of a family life).
I've tried herbal stuff, I've tried lavender, I've tried various apps but I can either get to sleep then wake after 45 minutes with a horrible heart wrenching start or I have trouble getting to sleep. I can feel really tired but the minute I close my eyes the fears and thoughts start.