TW infertility.. does it get easier?

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I'm having treatment for a molar pregnancy, just got out of Sheffield Weston park hospital props to them for being awesome, it's my nearest as there are only 3 hospitals that treat this in the uk and this was my closest but I was still 1.5 hours away from home.

Anyway, whilst I was on a cancer ward getting a chemotherapy type drug in a cancer hospital 1.5 hours away from home. My brother in law sent me and my husband his girlfriend's 12 week scan photo and announced it on Facebook tagging us in it. I feel totally bereft. Other friends and relatives have obviously got pregnant and had babies in the time we've been struggling but this just hits different.

I am going to throw myself into exercise and losing weight from tomorrow now I'm out of hospital so we can do ivf. But fuck me the want to insert myself into a vat of Chinese was strong tonight
Does it get easier?

I am so very sorry for your awful experience and for your brother’s insensitivity. It honestly does get easier with time, I promise, but I remember that gut-wrenching fury and despair and it’s a grim place to be. Be kind to yourself and hide if you need to. Sending un-mumsnetty hugs and .

Thank you. I'm going to mute them on social media I think.

Mute mute mute!

Sorry to hear you're having an awful time, I would take some time off social media to allow yourself to heal physically and mentally.

Having a miscarriage is hard enough but what you're going through sounds even harder. I'm struggling with infertility and need to loose weight for ivf but god it's hard, as long as there is hope you've got something pulling you forward. I had a miscarriage last year and it was awful as we've been trying for 10 years now.

Allow yourself to grieve, you can be happy for other people but you can step back to look after yourself. That's ok, I admit I find it hard to deal with pregnancy stages and I've distanced a bit but once the baby is around and is real especially as they get older I find it easier to be around them.

Have a massive Chinese, curl up with your DH on the sofa tonight abs have a cry if it helps you. When you've got your strength back then focus on what you want to do about getting healthy.