I recently had a baby boy on 31st January 2020. I feel like I have lost the last 8 months of his life, they've flashed before my eyes. I also have a daughter who is now 6 and was home schooling, entertaining and trying to split my time evenly but I feel like I haven't done that. I am now struggling to bond with my son, even play time is hard. I went back to work in September and working from home with a baby is super hard, I feel like he is just dumped and ignored. I finish work for the school run and then work one more hour, so my daughter entertains him or plays in her room but then I also feel like she is neglected. Then after that it's cook tea, baths and play but mostly with my daughter as she also has homework. I can't get rid of this sense of "bad mum syndrome" and I'm struggling so much. My partner also works away, he was at home for quite a long period of time but it just wasn't working financially plus he wasn't really here if that makes sense. When my little girl was born I was at university so I took a year out and had a whole year of just me and her and it was amazing. I really feel like I've missed out on my baby boy and I'm scared incase I never have that bond with him like I do my daughter. Any tips or advice would be very much appreciated?