I felt like I was coming out the other side of a breakup I went through a few months ago. Nothing went terribly wrong - there was no cheating or anything, we just obviously weren't compatible and he said he had fallen out of love with me. I was absolutely heartbroken by that, thought we were going to get married, were in the throws of buying a house together, the lot.
I'm really grateful though that he told me rather than going along with a life together with kids and all the rest with him resenting me and me being clueless then hit with a divorce.
And this evening he's sent me a message. I had deleted all chats etc. so I had no real trace of him on my phone but it was all amicable so I never blocked him. Anyway he messaged me something which would interest me, he's in a trade and has a friend working on something that used to be mine.
That's all fine, I was really interested and I'm pleased he sent it to me. But now I'm a crying mess again after being so fine for the last month or so now. I really thought I was moving on and now I feel as though I'm back at square one, pining away and feel like utter shit like it happened yesterday. It doesn't help that he messaged me on Whatsapp and I could see from his profile picture that he's lost weight and is looking really good so I feel like a fat ugly mess not worthy of meeting anyone else ever again, destined for a life of spinsterhood. It feels so lonely especially with covid as it feels like I can't get out there and meet anyone new? Not that I want to right now.
What is wrong with me?!?! Please pass a grip my way, or a nice story where you felt like me and went on to meet Prince Charming a week later.. Because right now I feel doomed 