Panic attacks and anxiety

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Hello,

I'm just starting to get fed up, I'm not depressed but my anxiety is so bad I lost my last job because of it(got called into her office and she said it was too bad to continue) and I have a new job, I've done 2 shifts and I'm back tomorrow and I'm so anxious!
When I say so anxious I had a panic attack leading to my heart rate being 161bpm, I took my 40mg propranolol which helped that after a while but it didn't help the feeling of doom, the knot in my stomach, voices in my head or the vomiting. I've had CBT but honestly it was more counselling than CBT because there's been a decent amount of trauma in my life and I wish now I had just insisted on purely CBT. The panic attack has gone(they're infrequent really, once every couple of months) but the feeling of doom and the sickness are there pretty much daily but so much worse. I have tried certain things like SSRI's but they really don't work for me, they don't help alleviate my anxiety and make me feel numb in other ways. I'm meant to be up at 6am and I'm so tired but there's so much pain in my chest and shoulder blades, I have indigestion and heartburn and I feel sick. I really want to be normal, I can't afford to not work forever but I also can't go on like this. Though it is worth mentioning the anxiety is constant almost, even a trip into town.

Please help, I don't want to live my life like this forever.

Oh and I've had rain music and asmr things on all night too. I really try to do what I know will help me but sometimes the anxiety is so bad that it eats away at me. My partner is helpful but he has to sleep and I don't want to make him stay up all night, because I know this isn't dangerous, I'm just fed up of it.

How is your propranolol prescribed? Are you able to take it regularly as a preventative?

Sorry to hear you’re feeling so bad, anxiety is so shit.

I've no advice I'm sorry but I'm sending you a handhold.

Anxiety is shit, I'm currently signed off with it and the thought of going back fills me with dread.

Just know you're not alone.

Hi, have you had blood tests done to see if the anxiety could be related to a deficiency? B12 deficiency can cause all kinds of weird and wonderful symptoms

I'm so sorry ,it sounds grim .Can you get the indigestion under control? Omeprazole ,lansoprazole can be prescribed .The former is available over the counter but expensive .Ranatidine over the counter as well and much cheaper .

OP, so sorry you are feeling so bad. Anxiety is horrible. Are you able to see your factor again and go through other options with them. What about sleeping pills?

Also are you eating ok? Do you drink or use recreational drugs?

Is there anything practical you can do to help? Exercise? Meditation?
Are there any other stresses in your life that you can minimise?

I really hope you find something that helps. Maybe once you spend a bit more time at work it might feel easier. Good luck.

I know how you feel op. I have panick attacks two hours before work. And while I am at work sometimes. It's awful. I don't have any advice but there are people that understand.

Have you tried yoga and meditation/ mindfulness? They're not a cure but can be helpful for grounding and managing when you begin to feel overwhelmed. I've tried every medication going and nothing helped, but daily yoga and meditation gets me through the worst of it. You don't need to be fit to try it, and even ten minutes a day can help.

As an example, I can be having a really nasty attack, put on a video and be certain it won't help, but within ten minutes my breathing has eased and all the other symptoms are reduced. The key is getting your breathing under control, and bringing your mind back to the here and now, not flying about all over the place with thoughts of doom.

I follow Yoga with Adriene on YouTube. She has sessions especially for anxiety, restorative relaxing ones, and also some that are more physical and give you a good workout too. It's home based so you don't need to worry about feeling silly, and you can take the methods you learn there and use them a work too.