Mental health question. Sorry.

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Sorry if this seems an odd thing to ask. I know that I’m not at my happiest at the moment. Life isn’t awful but there are things that I worry about.
I don’t think I’m suicidal. I really don’t. But the idea of killing my self does pop into my head several times a day. It’s not something I dwell on - just something that is present if that makes sense? I’ve got a 6 year old and I’d never act on anything. I was just wonering if these intrusive thoughts are normal? Or at least normalish?

Just to add I think I’ve always had these thoughts. Maybe since childhood? They are a bit worse at the moment maybe, but normal (to me at least!)

Not normal but a lot of people experience them. There was a thread last week, I think. I had them, I don't now. Years of talking therapies. Get help, it's worth it.

Thanks. Yes I think it might be worth seeking help. I’m definitely not at my best at the moment (Both external and internal reasons) so think maybe that’s making these thoughts more noticeable.

I remember as a child swallowing whole packs of smarties or tic-tacs pretending they were drugs and the sensation calmed me down. These days I can calm myself down by visualising suicide. But once I’ve done it I’m fine and can move on as it were. It’s like a coping technique rather than a sadness. Maybe.

I think it’s pretty normal to have intrusive thoughts. Yours are just saying a different thought
Someone may get one about being ugly or nobody likes them but yours is just saying that, I’d say it’s just a crappy unwanted thought if you aren’t going to act on it.
I wouldn’t dwell on it, it makes it so much worse.

Thanks Aldilogue. That makes sense and makes me feel better. Sleep is all over the place at the mo and 3:30 is the perfect time to dwell!